Still Here, Still Loud

Five Essays on Survival, Truth, and Blooming Late

For every late bloomer, every overcomer, every queer and neurodivergent soul still learning to take up space—this is for you.

I didn’t set out to be loud. For most of my life, I was the opposite—careful, measured, performing normalcy like my life depended on it.

Then I broke. Not all at once, but in the way a foundation cracks until one day the whole structure caves in.

These five essays are what I built from that wreckage.

What’s inside:

• Two Months Quiet – What happened when my body shut down and forced me to finally listen
• I Am Not an Issue – My response to a psych class that debated whether my existence is a “societal problem”
• Coming Out at 41 – The truth about late blooming, broken expectations, and starting over while everyone’s watching
• You Don’t “Look” Autistic – On surviving high-stakes careers while neurodivergent and the lies we smile through
• Fuck the Timeline – Why late bloomers are still blooming, and why society’s milestones are bullshit

This isn’t polished. It’s not neat. It doesn’t tie up with a bow.

Because that’s not how any of this works. Living visibly as a queer, disabled, neurodivergent person isn’t a journey—it’s a series of controlled detonations where you blow up your own life to save it.

If you’re drowning too—if you’ve spent years performing wellness, straightness, neurotypicality, or any other flavor of “acceptable”—I see you.

If you’re standing at the edge of 40, 50, 60, wondering if it’s too late to start over: It’s not. You’re right on time for your own damn life.

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